~What Kind Of Friend Are You?~

~What Kind Of Friend Are You~

Life...Friends...Hurt...We all long to have people in our life who will be there for ya. We long to have someone we can confide our Fears...Hopes...Dreams to. We believe the people we choose to be involved in our life will remain there forever. When it doesn't, It hurts. Deeply...Painfully...Regretably.... We are left behind, feeling alone...crushed...abandoned. Sometimes we know why someone walks away from a friendship, other times we're left with confusion. Where do ya go from there? How do ya pick up the pieces of the life ya shared with them? Do ya seek them out for answers, of ya wrongs ya might have commited? Does it even phase ya that they walked away?
I would find it sad to be involved with someone and have them just walk away without explanation. Me personally, I admit to ending a almost twenty year friendship with someone I considered a best friend almost sister like. Why did I walk away? How did I walk away? Did my friend have a heads up as to why I ended the friendship?
My friend was given every chance to right the wrong she commited. She chose her path as I chose mine. I am not a person who goes out of their way to cause pain...sadness...hurt...in others. To me that's not the definition of friendship. She had asked me why a friend of hers walked away from her without explanation? At the time I could not give her one valid reason. I now can see why this friend of hers from childhood walked away. It was for the same reason I did. I did what her other friend did not. I explained to her the hurts...pain...sadness...she caused me in a time I didn't need it. When I needed her most she wasn't and couldn't be there for me. Same situation, different time, I was there above and beyond for her. Sadly she couldn't the same for me. I gave her time to correct this and she chose not to acknowledge any of it. There wasn't anything more I could do but to walk away to save myself from further hurt.
Am I sad she's not a part of my life? Yes, I am. Am I in a better place in my life without her in it? Yes, most definately. Would we be friends again...I'm not sure, If she continues the path she's on then a definate no.
When given the chance, to be told the offense or hurt ya committed. Knowingly or unknowingly would ya want to know why someone walked outta ya life? What would ya do to correct the situation? Are ya willing to let people in and outta ya life like a revolvong door? I personally don't have people coming and going in my life. I'm a person who takes each friendship to heart. I treasure the person not for WHAT they can do for me, But for WHO they are. There's a reason why someone crosses ya path in life. They are there to speak into ya life when other voices are silent. They help ya to grow as a person, they bring laughter, joy and memories. Each a special jewel to be taken care of and protected.
I long to keep people in my life, I will go the extra mile to be the friend I would want in return. I wonder... Do ya value who's in ya life right now? If ya do don't hesitate to let them know they matter to ya. Don't put it off, let them know NOW! If ya hurt someone, and ya AWARE ya hurt them, Make ammends today. If ya feel a friendship has shifted or changed and not for the better, acknowledge it to ya friend. Seek the person out and ask them. Apologize for any misunderstandings. Ask to be forgiven and be able to move on from this day forward. Do what ya can to keep those ya love and cherish in ya life for as long as ya can. Ya never know when either one of ya may no longer walk this earth. Time is fleeting and we're not promised tomorrow.