~Crow Woman~

"Crow Woman"

Just wanted to touch base with everyone on how I'm progressing on my art work. This is my very first Mixed Media art done on a 6" x 12" birchwood. I haven't sealed it as of yet because I need to purchase some beeswax as well as a hot glue pot to melt it in. Lil Love is facinated with her and says "I like it, Pretty Fairy" lol she seems to think all of Nina's people are Fairies. Don't ask me why. I do collect them but she doesn't know this.

I've been working on some challenges, and I'm really feeling like I can become the artist I should've been years ago.

Funny thing is I've been bombarded with signs pointing out my need to create. I don't usually believe in horoscopes, I mainly read them for fun. But all of June I received messages such as this.

~June 28,2009~

This is a time of new beginnings, Dear Aquarius whether you are aware of it or not, You are more then ready to take on some new chalenges. You have allowed yourself to become complacent about your career. You have the ability to make a major step up, why not do so? All that is required is a bit of effort on your part. Figure out what your ideal job would be then pursue it, or, better yet, Create it!

So I've been thinking back when I was 16,(before I married Mr.) I wanted to be the following...

A Commercial Artist, Physical Therapist, Mom. Seems I've done the mom thing, I'm onto the Nina thing. I'm not really interested in being a Physical Therapist anymore. I only wanted to be one because I wore braces on my legs from the waist down. All that's left is commercial artist. I'm not interested in being in the corporate world, because I'm not into hurting others. To be honest I'm not a competitive person to where ya have to hurt others to get ahead. But, I can still be an artist! So where do I go from here?

I need to finish school for one! I want to get my transcripts from high school and do what I can to get my high school diploma. Ok, don't look shocked I said I didn't have a high school diploma.

I'll explain for ya. Ya already know I married Mr. when I was 16. I didn't actually drop out of school, it kind of came around by accident. I was pregnant with my son and endured kidney stones when I was 6 months pregnant. I was hospitalized for almost 3 weeks, too which they threatened to do surgery if I didn't pass them. My main focus wasn't school at this point but to make sure I delivered a healthy baby. I won't go into major details, but will say my husband was told it was me or the baby.

I became and a mom and did what most moms do and that's put myself last on the list. Most of the times I never made it on the list. Life has a way of progressing faster then we all would like. My children all received their diplomas, and my heart soared with pride for accomplishing what my heart so long for. With getting my transcripts I can finish my education with a DIPLOMA not a GED. No offense to those who have a GED. But I want to get what I should've gotten years ago. Yes, it's gonna cost me more money to do it. But in the end I'll have my diploma. From there I can take some college art courses.

I made a 101 in 1001 Days List and this is on my list to do. I started it on October 13th, 2008. I need to finish it by July 11th,2011, Getting my transcripts will be one thing I can take off the list. I will admit I did pretty good on my list.

I have been working with a medium, that I want to perfect before I show my work. So far it's going pretty good. I'll share it once I get feedback on the project. I have ya curiosty peeked huh? lol I'l keep ya informed as the project progresses. Been working 10 hour days, 6 days a week. So most of the time I come home and crash. Have to finish up a few more challenges for my art groups. I'm learning so much from them and I feel blessed. I wouldn't have attempted to even try "Crow Woman" if it weren't for Mystele, Willowing & Gary. They give me the courage to explore "What if" In the famous words of Mystele http://mystele.blogspot.com/

"You can't control everything you just have to let go."

With that I've been letting go. Letting go the negative remarks & my hesitations of making my art perfect. It's freeing, really freeing. I just want to thanks Mystele for those words. She has no idea how much they've opened my eyes to my art.

Thanks Mystele hun! I so love ya, for being my inspiration!

I'm off to make art!